The empty weariness settle over me.
I am tired and alone.
You have left me now and forever.

Sweet city in the sky or the eternal inferno within.
I cannot decide where it is you've gone, where it is I'll follow to.

Surely it must be hell for the life you inflicted on me.
Yet surely it must be heaven for the ecstasy you envoked in me.

Was it you that said, one never walks the path to heaven but is carried there on the wings on righteousness.

Yet one must walk the pathes to hell to know what living is.

Just kicking in a jam, working my way around learning to go by feel. so if somethings in the wrong place, it's not always on purpose. I accept instruction grudgingly, tolerate criticism if it's constructive and made with a kiss attatched, more later.

Will I allow you to drag me down?

Will I allow you to hurt me now?

Will I spend the rest of my life wondering what I did this time?

Or will I stand up and walk away?

I am worthless,

I am foolish,

I am a disgrace.

Thank you for enlightening me.

I never would have known.

What happens when theres a war?
Death and Malice is what comes to mind;
What is the point of war?....Order?
How do you bring about order with chaos?
In war there are casualties, heroes, and civilians;
But when the war is in your backyard
no one is safe and there are no heroes;
If the war is in your backyard there
is nothing 'cept casualties and despair.

Prince Angel
September 22, 2001

words echo endlessly
on a sea of pain
blood red
hurt
it goes on forever
never ending
always the same
hurting worse
each day
the pain grows
slowly becoming unbearable
an ache
throbbing and harsh
growing worse
pounding out its existance
on the very essence of being
screaming
hating without thought
... ... ...
I don't know how to continue
to go on
I can't find the words for it
silence
HELP ME!!!

Raevynn
October 11, 2001