I have looked back at times in my life and thought that people seemed too good to be true, and that in that way they never disapointed me. They seemed too good to be real, and each time they were exactly that, not real. There were manipulations, and motives, games beneath the surface and they wanted something, soon after that the truth came out, who they really were.

I decided that that was not who I was going to be.

My boss told me earlier this year that he was very impressed with me. That I had surpassed his first thoughts of me. I told him that I hoped always to keep on impressing him and that I hoped that I could continue to prove through my actions how much I liked working there. I fully intend to keep that thought in my mind. I have heard other people at other places that were told some of the same things. Soon after that they got the raise, or promotion, and all of a sudden their work slacked off. My bosses expectation might be that I would do the same as them, but I want to be a little different.

I want to be like the man that chased me out to my car from a diner a few years ago. My wallet was in his hand , and he was trying to return it to me. Nothing was missing, even though I had a nice bit of cash in there. That man surpassed my expectations, he restored my faith in people.

I choose not to resolve to keep my expectations of myself as low as others might. I would like to think that with a little effort on my part, I might help someone have a little faith restored. That maybe in a way their view of the world might change, even for a little while.

I certainly hope so, because it really feels crappy to see the world as a place full of gamers, and disappontments.